The Spirit Speaks Through Me

[Brandon Johnson]

(5:02:11 PM) Ibrehem: Hey Brandon
(5:02:18 PM) ishaltnotlie: Hey Ibrehem
(5:02:21 PM) ishaltnotlie: how are you?
(5:02:22 PM) Ibrehem: Glad you picked me for the tribe
(5:02:23 PM) Ibrehem: good
(5:02:26 PM) Ibrehem: you
(5:02:38 PM) Ibrehem: Was wondering if you wanted to work together as well...
(5:03:56 PM) ishaltnotlie: that sounds like an interesting proposistion! I really like the people I picked on this tribe
(5:04:38 PM) ishaltnotlie: I will be honest though
(5:04:43 PM) ishaltnotlie: I am really tight with Mahtava
(5:05:05 PM) Ibrehem: Thats fine... All Im asking is to work together until merge at least. Keep us both around till then
(5:05:30 PM) Ibrehem: then, do what you have to do
(5:06:00 PM) ishaltnotlie: I'm not going to lie Ibrehem. The reason I picked you over Skupin was because I wanted someone from orginal Calau to vote out if we lost
(5:06:42 PM) Ibrehem: Interesting.
(5:06:47 PM) Ibrehem: We now stop talking
(5:07:24 PM) ishaltnotlie: You are a very interesting guy but I made a tie with Mahtava and I am not comfortable with breaking that
(5:07:37 PM) Ibrehem: oh i know some of them would
(5:07:40 PM) Ibrehem: watch your back
(5:07:42 PM) Ibrehem: with them
(5:08:12 PM) ishaltnotlie: okay


As I believe I've told you my gameplay coming into this game was to be an honest truthful gameplayer. While I have stumbled so far in this game I am continuing trying to get better with my honesty.

Ibrehem approached me offering me a deal to keep me safe to the merge in return for his safety. Having the bond of both being christian man (even though he's a muslim) I was tempted to take his offer. However it wouldn't feel right to betray Mahtava i told him the truth and he seemed upset. He told me to warn out for my fellow Mahtavans but I trust the rest of my orginal tribe whole heartedly.

[Brandon Johnson]

Okay the person who said that was Ibrehem here he said ''The reason Brandon choose me to get on this tribe was because that if we were to lose that I would be the first one out, And he also told me you were at the bottom of the Mahtava Alliance, So I am asking you to go with me to try and get Brandon out''

That's what he said to me

This hurts me so bad... Ibrehem came to me claiming to be a Christian man and I honored that by honestly telling him what my intentions were. I am not mad that he tried to get me out... but to get me out by using immoral lies is offensive.

This guy is worse then a regular muslim, he is a lying muslim. I have no respect for that. I really wanted to be a more calm and collecitve Brandon but that can't be done with liars running amuck. I just get really emotional when I feel like there is an injustice in this game. I am more emotional then usual because its my time of the month of what happened yesterday with Skupin and Candice.

It's really rough

[Brandon Johnson]

(8:48:58 PM) Ibrehem: Give up the godly act. All you are doing is making fun of it and it isnt right.
(8:50:03 PM) ishaltnotlie: I am sorry you feel that way
(8:50:09 PM) Ibrehem: Well its what you are doing
(8:50:23 PM) Ibrehem: The real Brandon Acutally believed in that stuff, and was edited as physco
(8:50:54 PM) ishaltnotlie: I am a fan of Brandon and respect the way that he played the game
(8:51:12 PM) Ibrehem: But all this Godly whatever is very offensive
(8:51:19 PM) Ibrehem: You arent Brandon
(8:51:25 PM) Ibrehem: you arent playing the game with God
(8:51:28 PM) Ibrehem: you are acting with it
(8:51:33 PM) Ibrehem: and its quite repulsive
(8:51:41 PM) Ibrehem: you are lying and manipulating to get to the end
(8:53:12 PM) ishaltnotlie: I'm sorry you feel that way but I do not appreciate these accusations that are not true. I have not lied to people and I sincerely want to play this game with honor. But you have your opinion of me and I respect that
(8:53:25 PM) ishaltnotlie: I hope that by the end of this I can change your mind
(8:53:30 PM) Ibrehem: You may try
(8:53:35 PM) Ibrehem: but you wont get my vote to win
(8:53:41 PM) Ibrehem: That is for sure
(8:54:10 PM) ishaltnotlie: That is something I am going to have to live with... and I am not even sure I will be given the oppurtunity to make the final 3
(8:54:12 PM) Ibrehem: And the :accusations" you are talking about, are totally blown out of proportion, but glad to know you have everyone wrapped aroud your finger.
(8:54:32 PM) Ibrehem: You may have if you werent so delusional about the old tribes sticking together.
(8:55:11 PM) ishaltnotlie: I am sticking with the people I bonded with at the beginning of the game
(8:55:23 PM) Ibrehem: and they will screw you in the end
(8:55:40 PM) ishaltnotlie: then that is how I will leave the game
(8:55:49 PM) ishaltnotlie: but I will leave with my head held high
(8:55:55 PM) Ibrehem: HA
(8:55:57 PM) Ibrehem: Then I was wrong
(8:56:06 PM) Ibrehem: you are the one they have wrapped around their fingers
(8:57:12 PM) ishaltnotlie: if that is what you have to be to be loyal then so be it
(8:57:34 PM) Ibrehem: Sorry but that is not how you play survivor. You dont deserve to be there over someone who wants to win
(8:57:56 PM) ishaltnotlie: I would love to win
(8:58:04 PM) Ibrehem: Then start playing to earn votes
(8:58:12 PM) ishaltnotlie: but I am not going to be a liar to win the game
(8:58:24 PM) Ibrehem: You will not make it to the end then.. simple as that
(8:58:24 PM) ishaltnotlie: I will do the best to win the game honestly
(8:58:41 PM) ishaltnotlie: then hopes the jury respects the way I played
(8:58:43 PM) Ibrehem: Godliness is not in survivor whatsoever.
(8:58:49 PM) Ibrehem: There has never been an honest winer
(8:58:51 PM) Ibrehem: winner*
(8:58:55 PM) Ibrehem: They never make it that far
(9:00:09 PM) ishaltnotlie: well I am going to try...
(9:00:14 PM) ishaltnotlie: or be eliminated trying
(9:01:13 PM) Ibrehem: good luck to you... but see you on the jury... I was NEVER after you and wouldnt have been. Would have loved to work with you, but you have your delusional thoughts and they will be the end to your game
(9:03:03 PM) ishaltnotlie: thank you. I am sorry we did not see eye to eye. I respect your position on my gameplay and will try to make it not seem as mocking
(9:03:31 PM) ishaltnotlie: it was never my intention to make it seem like i was mocking christianity... I will take note and fix it
(9:04:51 PM) Ibrehem: Survivor is not the place to have it.. Yes you can be Christian, but openly everywhere all the time, doesnt help
(9:05:39 PM) ishaltnotlie: ok


So Ibrehem's word cut deep. [breakscharacter]yes i've been a tad crazy but I still intend to play an honest game... and am a Christian. As he said its Survivor and I'm playing the game and my character[/breakscharacter]. I intend to prove him wrong by finishing the game in an honest and with all of my integrity. He claims that an honest player cannot make it to the end and I want to prove him wrong.

I think the main mission before me is to just make it to the end of the game. If the jury does not accept my honest gameplay then it is there right to but I want to make it to the end for my God. I do not regret anything I've done in this game and hope that when I finish I can look at the game and be happy with how I played it.

[Brandon Johnson]

(4:45:53 PM) Candice Woodcock: Hey Brandon
(4:47:46 PM) ishaltnotlie: Hey Candice. How are you doing?
(4:48:02 PM) Candice Woodcock: Good, you
(4:48:10 PM) ishaltnotlie: i am pretty good thanks
(4:49:12 PM) Candice Woodcock: Oh cool <3
(4:49:41 PM) ishaltnotlie: Just got back from a church luncheon it was a very enjoyable time
(4:50:20 PM) Candice Woodcock: Oh fun <3. I actually argued with my priest today, but that's a long story.
(4:51:36 PM) ishaltnotlie: oh well that is interesting
(4:52:23 PM) Candice Woodcock: Yeah, believe me he had it coming
(4:52:35 PM) ishaltnotlie: ah well
(4:52:38 PM) Candice Woodcock: But do u no which direction this vote is going
(4:53:18 PM) ishaltnotlie: as of now I think people are leaning towards Mikayla
(4:53:55 PM) Candice Woodcock: Mmk, any reasoning given
(4:54:16 PM) ishaltnotlie: im not sure. I haven't really gotten to talk to many people on aim
(4:54:41 PM) Candice Woodcock: Idk I feel like somethings going on that I don't know about
(4:54:53 PM) ishaltnotlie: what do you mean?
(4:55:43 PM) Candice Woodcock: Well like u don't get a feeling that theres an alliance behind these vote-outs?
(4:56:42 PM) ishaltnotlie: i mean yes
(4:57:50 PM) ishaltnotlie: i believe for now the orginal Mahtava tribe is sticking together
(4:57:52 PM) Candice Woodcock: I kinda feel like I'm just fodder
(4:58:05 PM) ishaltnotlie: well i do really like you
(4:58:15 PM) ishaltnotlie: but I can't bring myself to betray anyone who I gave my word too
(4:59:01 PM) Candice Woodcock: Really? This is just a Pagonging?
(4:59:42 PM) ishaltnotlie: as of now it seems to be
(5:00:10 PM) Candice Woodcock: Okay well that seriously sucks. I really didn't imagine original tribes being so prominent
(5:01:08 PM) ishaltnotlie: they were the people who i gave my word too
(5:01:20 PM) ishaltnotlie: they have done nothing to betray me since then
(5:02:08 PM) Candice Woodcock: But you do realize how successful that strategy won't be...
(5:03:30 PM) ishaltnotlie: my word is the most important thing to me
(5:05:20 PM) Candice Woodcock: Well I'm just saying that all your doing is ensuring yourself a spot in the final 6, rather than maybe getting a good place in the final 4
(5:06:02 PM) ishaltnotlie: i hear you
(5:07:42 PM) Candice Woodcock: Idk I'm sorry if I'm being sorta blunt but its pretty much set in stone I'm placing 7th, or more likely 8th
(5:10:46 PM) ishaltnotlie: it is understandable
(5:11:35 PM) ishaltnotlie: may i ask if you got a key as your auction prize?
(5:18:08 PM) Candice Woodcock: Nope. I got a hook, Rorys hook. *rolls eyes*
(5:18:19 PM) ishaltnotlie: oh
(5:18:31 PM) ishaltnotlie: so i doubt its of any use?
(5:18:42 PM) Candice Woodcock: Pretty much.
(5:18:47 PM) ishaltnotlie: that stinks :/
(5:19:22 PM) Candice Woodcock: Well since I have no shot of making past the next 2 tribals you could imagine.
(5:19:42 PM) ishaltnotlie: dont underestimate yourself
(5:19:47 PM) ishaltnotlie: you are a fierce competiter
(5:21:15 PM) Candice Woodcock: Challenges will only get me so far. Again I'm not bitter or angry, this just sucks
(5:21:55 PM) ishaltnotlie: I am sorry
(5:22:32 PM) Candice Woodcock: Well am I going right now
(5:22:40 PM) ishaltnotlie: no
(5:22:54 PM) ishaltnotlie: well i can't confirm it 100% but as of this moment
(5:22:58 PM) ishaltnotlie: I am pretty sure you are safe
(5:23:37 PM) Candice Woodcock: Haha I just seriously don't wanna place 8th. I placed it multiple times
(5:24:34 PM) ishaltnotlie: oh
(5:24:37 PM) ishaltnotlie: okay
(5:25:36 PM) Candice Woodcock: Haha lol but I appreciate u at least talking to me about it.
(5:26:02 PM) ishaltnotlie: even though I have to vote people out
(5:26:06 PM) ishaltnotlie: I generally like most people in this game
(5:26:24 PM) ishaltnotlie: Osten and Ibrehem have been the only two that rubbed me the wrong way
(5:26:42 PM) Candice Woodcock: Yeah I could totally see that
(5:31:45 PM) ishaltnotlie: haha yea
(5:33:28 PM) Candice Woodcock: Well good luck me, I guess
(5:33:54 PM) Candice Woodcock: No shot u have an idol you'd like to give me right
(5:34:48 PM) ishaltnotlie: haha
(5:35:09 PM) ishaltnotlie: well unless im being blindsided as well you are safe this round
(5:35:21 PM) ishaltnotlie: Im not writing your name down. I think you are strong enough to win next round
(5:35:28 PM) ishaltnotlie: then who knows what will happen


It is really difficult telling someone you have gotten to know well that you are hoping they get voted off soon. Candice really gave up when I told her the pagonging plan. I felt sorry for her. I could only imagine her feeling helpless wanting to make a move but not being able to.

I really like Candice and Mikayla. They are on AIM a lot and easy to talk to. If I had not given my word to Mahtava I would consider flipping. However I am a man of my word.

Hopefully she takes it better than Ibrehem.